I don't mean anything by this mummy...you know i love you...

MY CONFESSION:
dear father; i didn't mean to kill my mother;
didn't mean to cause her death and blame it on my baby brother;
i didn't mean to tie that rope;
so tightly round her throat;
should have listen to her when she was screaming,"LET GO! LET GO! LET GO!;
i didn't mean to step on her fingers and pull at her hair;
she was being unreasonable, she was being unfair;
if she had just let me go to the party last week;
she wouldn't have had that black eye and bruised cheek;
i didn't mean to use the pliers to pull out her teeth;
she wouldn't shut up,kept asking,"HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?";
So i replied, "YOU WANNA KNOW HOW? BITCH!THIS IS HOW!";
that's when i stuck my fingers in and rip both her eyeballs out;
she was screaming and crawling on the bathroom floor;
so i pulled her tongue out and kicked her in the jaw;
she pretty much didn't say anything after that;
that's when i smashed the head in with a baseball bat;
it all started when i was thirteen;
she would come home drunk, and she wouldn't quit screaming;
she blamed me for how daddy just packed up and left;
how she's struggling to survive,how she's so heavily in debt;
she keeps complaining and saying that i'm a burden;
well,they shouldn't have used those cheapo condoms;
why the fuck did she bother to raise me as a child;
i'd rather be raised by a pack of wolves in the wild;
but now her problem has been solved,i sure hope she's happy;
i did it for her, " AREN'T YOU PROUD OF ME MUMMY?"
Once,she cut my allowance cos she caught me with a joint in my mouth;
it's all her fault!! but just look at her now;
just look at how she's lying there, as quiet as can be;
father!you still there?;are you listening to me?;
maybe i'll chop her up into pieces,and feed her to the dogs;
or maybe i'll burn her to ashes,i can't leave her there to rot;
she told me she loved me,she said that she care;
but when i needed somebody,she was never there;
when i think of her,only hate fills my mind;
what happened was justice; to you its a crime;
so father please forgive me for what i've done;
and give me strength to dig this hole 6 feet underground