Weight

These four walls block out the sound
I wanna contact the dead but even they are ignoring me
Beyond this door i'll never go
Looking over my shoulder constantly
Being alone in this room is my only option
Cos i know my legs will carry me nowhere
Even if i try, I know i won't go far
How long will i put up with the countless eyes that stare
I put my hand out the window to feel the rain
The sky is an expression of my soul
i can't take it , Its just too much pain
The weather like my heart , so dark... so cold
My neck is breaking , cos of the weight on my shoulders
My knees are giving way , i'm gonna fall
As i grow older , i get colder
Don't see the point to live at all
I hide my face in my hands and the tears begin to flow
How long can i hide the facts
Its like i'm dying so painfully ... so slow
This is a perfect example of how words attack
My heart is beating but i don't feel it
I breathe the air but i still feel like i'm suffocating
My ears are hearing things that i don't wanna hear
Right now... suicide is what i'm contemplating
I'm breaking down and i can't get a grip
There are only two words in my mind... " WHATEVER FOR?"
Guess its time i left this room
Out the window ... not the door